Monday, December 29, 2008 11:52 PM
2009 Message to boyfriend:
"Even if i m angry for no reasons, he needs to understand why and he must take all the initatives to understand my very difficult and confusing behavior. And the only way to show that you understand me is by doing things for me even before i need to open my mouth to ask for it."
(i think all boyfriends in the world should read this)
I have many many wonderful days this holiday... Staying at home, doing nothing... just laze around~Anyway, i got goals for myself!
My career path to take.... my aim.... i am wondering.... stuck between 2 choices!
"Even if i m angry for no reasons, he needs to understand why and he must take all the initatives to understand my very difficult and confusing behavior. And the only way to show that you understand me is by doing things for me even before i need to open my mouth to ask for it."
(i think all boyfriends in the world should read this)
I have many many wonderful days this holiday... Staying at home, doing nothing... just laze around~Anyway, i got goals for myself!
My career path to take.... my aim.... i am wondering.... stuck between 2 choices!
11:12 AM
I wonder if it is luck or what, but i read a blog on a girl , whom was my secondary school friend's ex girlfriend ( they broke up already, the guy is in NS, the girl an air stewardess, tgt for 2 years) telling my secondary school friend that she did not leave him because she found a rich guy, and before knowing this guy, they have already come to mutal decision to break up and in the first place, she didn't even know he is rich.
And her first sentence struck me.
"First, i did not leave him for some rich fellows although the guy that i have good feelings towards now is rich. Thats because i m lucky. "
Yes, that's because I'm lucky.
I was just sharing my joy in a way whom people may think that its an act of showing off i have a rich boyfriend althought its true the boyfriend i have now is doing quite well with an income that is pretty good for a diploma holder. That's because i m lucky.
New year coming! 2009, a brand new year to look forward to!
BLAHS.
Oh, cannot forget to say, i love my mummy, sister, boyfriend and dearest buuny who is very funny!!! I think she knows who is she!
And her first sentence struck me.
"First, i did not leave him for some rich fellows although the guy that i have good feelings towards now is rich. Thats because i m lucky. "
Yes, that's because I'm lucky.
I was just sharing my joy in a way whom people may think that its an act of showing off i have a rich boyfriend althought its true the boyfriend i have now is doing quite well with an income that is pretty good for a diploma holder. That's because i m lucky.
New year coming! 2009, a brand new year to look forward to!
BLAHS.
Oh, cannot forget to say, i love my mummy, sister, boyfriend and dearest buuny who is very funny!!! I think she knows who is she!
Monday, December 22, 2008 8:50 AM
6 months would soon pass us by!!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008 6:44 AM
Its really saddening.
The feeling of not being understood.
The feeling of being misunderstood.
The feeling whereby the ones you thought, closest to heart, were actually the ones furthest away.
Why? Because thats how the society judges people, therefore, everyone would be the same?
The cruelty of the reality.
The reality of the society.
The cooling of hearts between people.
Was this a dream that has been shattered?
Disappointment beyond what this word could actually expressed.
I loved, I treasured.
Most importantly, I tried.
I really cherished. But why must it always be like this?
The feeling of not being understood.
The feeling of being misunderstood.
The feeling whereby the ones you thought, closest to heart, were actually the ones furthest away.
Why? Because thats how the society judges people, therefore, everyone would be the same?
The cruelty of the reality.
The reality of the society.
The cooling of hearts between people.
Was this a dream that has been shattered?
Disappointment beyond what this word could actually expressed.
I loved, I treasured.
Most importantly, I tried.
I really cherished. But why must it always be like this?
Friday, December 12, 2008 6:09 AM
LAST DAY OF SCHOOL AND ITS HOLIDAY!!!!
WEEEE... Holidays... Days that i don't need to wake up early, days where i can slack away~
I am so excited!
though not all happy, at least, i am quite happy... It would be totally completed when boyfriend comes home! MISS HIM!
WEEEE... Holidays... Days that i don't need to wake up early, days where i can slack away~
I am so excited!
though not all happy, at least, i am quite happy... It would be totally completed when boyfriend comes home! MISS HIM!
Thursday, December 11, 2008 6:38 AM
hmm.. i don'tknow if this is appropreiate, but since it has been quite sometime since i blog about what i feel about everything, i'll just rant it out all at one go...
I don'tknow if i am asking too much, or maybe i am too naive, but sometimes, i really feel like, whats the point of being nice to friends when most of the time, mot of them are too busy for me, or simply, couldn't be bothered because, i wasn't that important afterall. No names mentioned here, unless u think u r a guilty one... it could be any friend, regardless of length of frienship, gender or age.
It makes me wonder.. really, like am i still like a friend, or just someone, who is trying too hard to blend in. Am i someone whom would be thought of right at the start, or someone who actually be thought of to make up the numbers? Alot of questions going through in my mind.
Though i might be laughing at all, sometimes, its just that i didn't want to flare up nd argue back, but sometime's words that friends say are so sarcastic, at least to me, that i feel hurt and i wonder should i be bothered next time if there was no one for that friend, should i even bother to be there.
Like, I really wonder, am i as important a friend to that person, like how i treasure that person?
I can only say, those who r my true friends, i know who you are... and those whom treat me like a nobody, don't expect me too be forever so nice. I don't owe you a thing. I have already given my best.After this year, i would most probably can't be bothered anymore.
Good news to myself as the xmas season is nearing, i am happier too cause its the season for joy, peace, harmony and sharing with the love ones....And my dearest is coming home soon!
I MISS YOU BABY BOY!
I don'tknow if i am asking too much, or maybe i am too naive, but sometimes, i really feel like, whats the point of being nice to friends when most of the time, mot of them are too busy for me, or simply, couldn't be bothered because, i wasn't that important afterall. No names mentioned here, unless u think u r a guilty one... it could be any friend, regardless of length of frienship, gender or age.
It makes me wonder.. really, like am i still like a friend, or just someone, who is trying too hard to blend in. Am i someone whom would be thought of right at the start, or someone who actually be thought of to make up the numbers? Alot of questions going through in my mind.
Though i might be laughing at all, sometimes, its just that i didn't want to flare up nd argue back, but sometime's words that friends say are so sarcastic, at least to me, that i feel hurt and i wonder should i be bothered next time if there was no one for that friend, should i even bother to be there.
Like, I really wonder, am i as important a friend to that person, like how i treasure that person?
I can only say, those who r my true friends, i know who you are... and those whom treat me like a nobody, don't expect me too be forever so nice. I don't owe you a thing. I have already given my best.After this year, i would most probably can't be bothered anymore.
Good news to myself as the xmas season is nearing, i am happier too cause its the season for joy, peace, harmony and sharing with the love ones....And my dearest is coming home soon!
I MISS YOU BABY BOY!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008 4:54 AM
Back to blogging...
I had a pretty good time today going out with mummy..
wentto IMM and this time, is just me n mum, sis went for basketball competition...
It was like a fantastic bonding session...
I bought some stuffs this fewdays, clothes, brassiere, bag thats on sale...
Practically buying all this small little things to try to cheer myself day by day as boyfriend is not around...
boyfriend went over to vietnamfor work for ard 5 days... since last saturday...
I had a pretty good time today going out with mummy..
wentto IMM and this time, is just me n mum, sis went for basketball competition...
It was like a fantastic bonding session...
I bought some stuffs this fewdays, clothes, brassiere, bag thats on sale...
Practically buying all this small little things to try to cheer myself day by day as boyfriend is not around...
boyfriend went over to vietnamfor work for ard 5 days... since last saturday...
Tuesday, December 2, 2008 7:42 AM
browsing through photos of happy couples, looking at those happy and sweet face, makes me wonder, was my love with Shane, of the same kind? The exciting, fun, the kind of love when all youngster have?
Going on romantic dates- watch movie, go out shopping, etc etc
Taking tons of photos - be it camera, neo prints
Those sweet loving nicknames - dear dear, darling, lao po, lao gong
I realise my love with Shane, my boyfriend of ard 5 months plus, is totally opposite...
We enjoy watching movies at home(DVD)
We enjoy activities like prawning, drink tea family actitvites(MJ)
We seldom take photos, let alone neo prints
We find going to short getaways extremely meaningful
We don't believe in couple ring (I mean he, i have been dying for one) but he got me the couple necklace and wallet...
We seldom have those fanciful dinner at restaurants, but more of home cooked, be it my house, or his house...
We met each other's granny and find grannies as one of the most important people in our lives...
Did the honeymoon period passed too fast? But, i am sure, i loved him, since the start till now, and he feels the same way... but, why is this relationship, have a striking resemblance of those whom are aunties n uncles ( married ) ??
Am i that old to be auntie... (panicks)
He always says, LAO FU LAO QI (old husband, old wife = tgt for so long le)
but, are we really lao fu lao qi??
Going on romantic dates- watch movie, go out shopping, etc etc
Taking tons of photos - be it camera, neo prints
Those sweet loving nicknames - dear dear, darling, lao po, lao gong
I realise my love with Shane, my boyfriend of ard 5 months plus, is totally opposite...
We enjoy watching movies at home(DVD)
We enjoy activities like prawning, drink tea family actitvites(MJ)
We seldom take photos, let alone neo prints
We find going to short getaways extremely meaningful
We don't believe in couple ring (I mean he, i have been dying for one) but he got me the couple necklace and wallet...
We seldom have those fanciful dinner at restaurants, but more of home cooked, be it my house, or his house...
We met each other's granny and find grannies as one of the most important people in our lives...
Did the honeymoon period passed too fast? But, i am sure, i loved him, since the start till now, and he feels the same way... but, why is this relationship, have a striking resemblance of those whom are aunties n uncles ( married ) ??
Am i that old to be auntie... (panicks)
He always says, LAO FU LAO QI (old husband, old wife = tgt for so long le)
but, are we really lao fu lao qi??
