hmm.. i don'tknow if this is appropreiate, but since it has been quite sometime since i blog about what i feel about everything, i'll just rant it out all at one go...
I don'tknow if i am asking too much, or maybe i am too naive, but sometimes, i really feel like, whats the point of being nice to friends when most of the time, mot of them are too busy for me, or simply, couldn't be bothered because, i wasn't that important afterall. No names mentioned here, unless u think u r a guilty one... it could be any friend, regardless of length of frienship, gender or age.
It makes me wonder.. really, like am i still like a friend, or just someone, who is trying too hard to blend in. Am i someone whom would be thought of right at the start, or someone who actually be thought of to make up the numbers? Alot of questions going through in my mind.
Though i might be laughing at all, sometimes, its just that i didn't want to flare up nd argue back, but sometime's words that friends say are so sarcastic, at least to me, that i feel hurt and i wonder should i be bothered next time if there was no one for that friend, should i even bother to be there.
Like, I really wonder, am i as important a friend to that person, like how i treasure that person?
I can only say, those who r my true friends, i know who you are... and those whom treat me like a nobody, don't expect me too be forever so nice. I don't owe you a thing. I have already given my best.After this year, i would most probably can't be bothered anymore.
Good news to myself as the xmas season is nearing, i am happier too cause its the season for joy, peace, harmony and sharing with the love ones....And my dearest is coming home soon!
I MISS YOU BABY BOY!